Giving In

Most people who know me will tell you that I live a rich fantasy life.

It’s not like I believe I’ll ever achieve the things I fantasize about. Sometimes they’re just… things I use to pass the time. I stare into shops and imagine what it would be like to be the type of person who bought those products, even though I know¬†I never will because I’m broke and too scared of what it might mean to lose money on things I’d never use.

I’ve never been very particular about my products. I’ve always wanted to be, but I never had the wherewithal to allow myself that luxury. It wasn’t about the money; I couldn’t find a reason to purchase the things I lusted after because there was always something more worthy, something I needed to save for.

I finally gave in to an old desire tonight. I bought about $50 from an online boutique called Lush that specializes in organic bath soaps. None of the things I bought matched up to my fantasies, of course – no one ever fantasizes about buying a charcoal mask to clear up the blackheads you get from working in a fast food restaurant – but I’m hoping I love them more than I’d love the single-use bath fizzies I was lusting after back in 2013.

I might write about them later. Stay tuned?